August 31st, 2006

I’m having a hard time concentrating. It feels like my mind doesn’t want to work on anything at all. What’s worse is that this brain goes hyper when I’m supposed to be dozing off for my day sleep (I hat how that sounds). But what can I do? I’m in graveyard shift and I dunno how many more chapters of this will come.

On one thought, maybe this hopelessness isn’t about my work schedule. Maybe that’s only a fraction of the issue. The thing that’s really taking its toll on me is the new team policy. For the nth time, gusto ko nang isigaw, Ayoko na talaga! Oh how many times have I wanted to quit but just didn’t have a choice? And does that piss me off?! 

Here’s the meat:

While it is acceptable to impose sanction to employees who often come late for work (read: SEO team), and display a lack of passion for their jobs as they gobble up all possible leave benefits, it is still UNFAIR, UNREASONABLE, and most of all, STUPID to terminate an employee because it's her second time to arrive late in a quarter of a year!

Never has it become so poignant to me as now to realize that I am not cut for employee life – ever. No, I appreciate hard work and labor but not injustice. You might say we deserve that kind of sanction for our lack of self-discipline. Very true, but one has to take note of all the factors working their destructive ways to send me to such fate.

1. Work starts at 6am. I live in Pasay; building (with the ultra Jurassic elevator) is located at Ortigas – and he expects me not to be late a single day?!
    
2. You might say I can get off naman early. Yes, it’s true my shift ends by 3pm – only that I’m required to render excess hours for the company without pay, take note.
    
3. And who can overlook the aircon??? Can I just tell the whole Philippines that we have been experiencing winter in August here? The Aircon blows like there’s no tomorrow. What’s worse is that no one will ever lift a finger to listen to your plea to please make your working environment normal. Why is that so? You’re part of the support group remember? This is a call center, honey. Sales rule! (I wish I could mention the *f  word here).

I wonder was it also an order to make our team feel unworthy of company care? Unworthy to be heard… too unimportant to be given concern? Are we simply dispensable, replaceable, push overs?