March 26, 2007
After 50 years of hibernation, I'm back to blogging. Probably there have been a lot of wrong things going on in my life. It's like holding on tightly to a rope when you know it's either too weak to keep you, or it's you who's too weak to win. What do you do when life throws unpleasant surprises at you yet you feel it's too late to have a change of mind? How do you handle extreme character differences? What meaning can you find in suffering from choices you've made?
For the past weeks, I can't write down these thoughts, all the more organize them, or make sense of them. That explains the long blog leave. And if you think I've gotten the answers I need, HOW I WISH!
You wonder what the hell is my problem.
I just can't deal with my boyfriend anymore! pfft! 
Sometimes I wonder If I only gained in age, but not in wisdom. These are the times when I fear finding that perfect pink wall to bang my head for the stress I allowed in my life.
If being in love means breaking your own rules, it's a terrible love story then.
PS: Lord, what have I gotten myself into? I bet You're enjoying a big laugh right now. But please, have mercy to help me see things through... or you can just turn him into a gay if he doesn't want to cooperate. Hehehe!